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Courtney E. Martin
Book Tour Blog: The Calm Before the Storm
8 Comments | posted April 11th, 2007 at 12:42 pm by Courtney E. Martin

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My book comes out in a week and I am feeling strangely calm about the whole thing. What can possibly explain this? (Especially given my predisposition to anxiety when I’m not staring down the publication of my first book.)

Maybe it was living through my first television experience—on Fox News’ Cavuto on Business no less—last week. It was me and five TV-veteran, business experts hanging in Bill O’Reilly’s green room with a collective foot of makeup on our faces. I lost track of how many times someone told me that I looked like I was 12-years-old.

Maybe it was being around my motley crew of a writer’s group last night and talking about the writer’s life, drinking beers, eating pizza, and laughing our collective, writerly asses off.

Maybe I am just too excited for my book party, which promises to be an overwhelming coming together of all the different facets of my life in one small room…with cupcakes and vodka.

Maybe it is that I have been getting really beautiful emails from young women who have their hot little hands on early copies and they’ve said things like this:


“There were literally dozens of moments in which I felt that you were writing directly to me, telling me my own story…I often had to stop reading and place your book into my lap just to soak up the feeling of another person understanding my obstacles with body image and eating over the past few years.”

“The parts of Perfect Girls that resonated most for me—the ones where I was like, ‘Oh my god, Courtney is inside my head’—were your discussions of your relationship to your parents, your discussion of how confused teenagers are about their sexuality, the part about the post-college years and the perfect girl feeling beat up by corporate culture. In fact, that’s what I identified with the most—the need to be the best. I’ve gotten so angry at myself over the years when I didn’t get an award or promotion, when the guy I liked didn’t just fall at my feet, even now when editors don’t write me back after I’ve sent them a pitch. I tend to usually bracket my successes and think, ‘Yeah, but I should be doing this.’ And I really think that what I read here, to see on paper ‘You’re not perfect and you never will be perfect, so chill’ is exactly what I needed to hear right now.”

I’ve got blurbs from big-hitters like Naomi Wolf and Arianna Huffington (which I am very grateful for) but nothing made me feel as “right”—as in on the right path, doing the right work, speaking the right truth—than these words.

I would love to sell books. (I’m sure my publisher would REALLY love to sell books.) But I know that I spent years of my life listening to these sad stories, wrestling with how to tell them most ethically and beautifully, writing, reading, and writing some more, because I wanted to make girls’ lives better. Period.

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  1. Joshua D. Sisneros

    I can’t wait to read this book. In fact i have a few young ladies in my classes who need to read a book that shows their struggle in a young, fresh, and loving way. Can’t wait. Sounds like things are going well, Court. you sound as col as you were in 8th grade at the free throw line…..swoosh! Good luck!

    April 11th, 2007 | 3:48 pm
  2. Amen! I love this post. I love your peace. I love your “period.” xo, Kimmi

    April 11th, 2007 | 9:10 pm
  3. bubbaj

    Hey hey hey! Kimmie, you are a great person and all, but don’t be talkin’ bout my woman’s “periods.” Transcript from Cavuto = ridiculoid.

    April 12th, 2007 | 9:29 am
  4. GO COURT!!!!!! SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!!! xoxoxoD

    April 12th, 2007 | 9:36 am
  5. Mmm… cupcakes… argallllgglg…..

    April 12th, 2007 | 1:47 pm
  6. Bubba,

    I wanted to make girls’ lives better. Period.

    That’s the period I was talking about.

    Don’t you worry. ;-)

    xo

    April 12th, 2007 | 10:43 pm
  7. Brooke Linville

    I am so happy for you Courtney. What a terrific way to start out a book publishing career!! I can’t wait to get my hands on it (though the reading may have to wait until the semester ends!).

    April 12th, 2007 | 10:51 pm
  8. CONGRATULATIONS COURTNEY!!!!!!!!!!

    I’m so excited for you! I can’t wait to see your book in the real world–

    Patti

    April 18th, 2007 | 9:01 am

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